I'm remembering all those things you used to say to me. the way you'd make me smile all day long. the feelings you gave me that made me realize i needed to be free. all i want is to have you in my life in some shape or form. how can you go from one extreme to the next in one day? you say "it's nothing you did, it's not you at all" but it is me because i'm not who you want. if i'm not the one you want, then so be it. but you made me feel alive once and now i feel dead, when i need you the most you abandoned me. i just want to hear you say those things again.