peeling off labels. inhaling smoke, exhaling regrets. raised eyebrows. looks of want. feelings of neglect. what do you want from me? i can't tell. not yet. wanting to feel needed. needing to feel wanted. the urges are gone, non appreciated. all the things YOU said to me, were they out of lust? it could never be more than that. it seems to me they are only appreciated in the moment. your expectations are high and so were mine. emptiness in my soul. death to my lungs. i cant breathe without your attention.

sleeping with eyes wide open, i see you looking my direction. i wonder what it is you see. you put your fingers through my hair and ripped my jeans.