i want to be content again.
i can't do this alone.
i thought you said we were each others crutches.
can't you see?
i can't stand on my own.

i could fill a mason jar with all the tears i have shed over this.
does it make you feel like a man when you pretend i'm not there.
when you pretend you don't want me, need me.

i'm more woman than you've ever had, you fear me.
i hope you feel incompetent when your lying in my bed.
afraid to love me.

it's funny how you think your not okay without something when you used to be just fine before you had it. but things aren't like eternal sunshine, you can't erase someone. you can't erase memories. you can't erase feelings. as much as you think you want to..you don't because who are you without them?

i have this sick feeling inside like i wanna cry so bad but i can't. i feel so empty like there's absolutely nothing left inside of me. like my tears are caught in my stomach and cant find the path to my eyes. i hate the way i am sometimes, i wish i were stronger. but i guess this will make me stronger.

i wonder if you meant the things you said. i wonder if you even remember. i could ask you but i'm afraid of the answer. my gut says you did and that's why you called me.